*jeffcoloma

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I wonder if it will be fine
Will be fine tomorrow
In the cold winter night I say
Goodbye and good luck to you
I wish to go there
Oh see you again
I thought of the happy days
When I was in our dream
Yeah see you again
The snow whispers down
Fall went quickly and
Christmas came too soon
It's time you went
I wish you good luck my friend
Looking back on the good old days
I cried till my eyes dried
I'm going to miss you
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from "goodbye and goodluck" by The Brilliant Green

I'm failing this test. I'm intelligent. I'm insightful. I'm self reflective. I thought I would be OK. I thought I could think my way out to something better. It's all too apparent I can't. I'm failing at this test. What do you do when you can barely hold on?

the settling of boredom doesn't necessarily mean the death of creativity, just the onset of stir craziness.

Listening to: Barnacles by Ugly Cassanova

wow... haven't posted anything in a looooong time. god i'm bored. three days off and i have nothing to do. if i start thinking about it, i'm really gonna get more set on the idea i'm doing nothing useful with my life. I NEED TO GET OUT OF THE DAMN HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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what? a digital slr?

All of it is coming to the edge...

Listening to: The Contes - Bleed Together

just surviving daily until a ten day vacation. eight days to go. i'm tired of so much. i just have to survive. i'm stir crazy. i need to go now. i need to go somewhere. i'm tired of the same. i need something new. i need to get out. geez... i need a freaking tan.

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It started with a Powershot S10... DSC-T1... DSC-T7... how am i gonna capture inspiration... desperation... love... loneliness... warmth of the heart... arctic of the mind... joy... memories next?

So it all begins.

Listening to: Heart Cooks Brain - Modest Mouse

Been a wallpaper D/Lder for quite awhile, just browsing for images that captures some kind of emotion from me to adorn my windows desktop.

I've been in a rather sour mood lately. A cathartic release? I dunno.

A massive backlog of photos since that first wintry day. 4GBs worth of images... memories... disorganized... disjointed... forgotten. It just keeps on growing day by day.

nothing else to do. so what do i decide to do? clean. no... not my room... which sorely needs it... but a virtual dumping ground that lacks of anything concrete or solid in the real world. an external memory bank for my brain. 4GBs worth of interelated and disjointed memories stuffed into the expanse of magnetic representations of 0s and 1s. all too easy to move into oblivion.

So it all begins.

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It started with a Canon Powershot S10 bought a few years back with a Dell laptop. Then I got a Sony T1. God I'm a whore for japanese esthetics. Upgraded recently to a T7. Wondering if I really should be going full core for a Nikon DSLR.